New Year Imposter Syndrome.

I’ve got New Year stage fright when it comes to my blog, again. Every so often my ability to write here flies away and suddenly I’m faced with the feeling that surely what I have to say can’t be that interesting and is it all a bit silly, this blog lark? Those of us that choose to share our lives with you in this way do so for many reasons, for me it was that I was asked to, having never really been an avid blog follower, I soon felt like it was a creative outlet I had been in great need of. But once in a while it feels as though the bottom just drops out of your confidence and you’re left with this funny cyber place, where you talk about plywood, arguing children and nice cushions!

So, I thought I would break my radio silence and push through the anxiety to wish you all a Happy New Year and to tell you I hope to get back to more frequent writing soon (I’ve said that before, haven’t I!), I miss it, but it’s also not something you can push, I’ve made that mistake in the past and am never pleased with the end result.

Portrait image of Alice
Eula, last weekend, still in Summer mode.

2019 has begun with a focus on more time spent with my little people, something that has been much needed, my constant busyness has been keenly felt by Nancy and Eula, they both know it’s all for a good reason, but even so, it’s hard going when you’re 7 and 5. Up until August’18 they had me at home almost constantly from birth, then I went straight into working more hours than I care to mention, but this is what it takes to start new projects – risks and sacrifice. The end result, I hope, will be the ability to have more control over my own time and hopefully employ someone to take the pressure off, shop wise at least.

This month I am easing into the year with a 4 day working week, to allow me the time to hang out at home and do a bit of winter nesting, something that is so important for our mental health in these dark, cold days. The Christmas decorations are gone, but I still feel that need to create, so I’m busying myself with some updates to the storage in both the girl’s rooms, though things may have got a little out of hand and I may be undertaking a mini revamp of Nancy’s room!

Bedroom goodies for Nancy from H&M.

I’m heading to Paris for 24 hours next Friday, to visit the Maison et Objet Trade Show, it’s going to be exhausting but good fun as I’m heading over with a lovely bunch of ladies, I’ll be sure to take lots of photos and share with you upon my return. I’m hoping to fit in a meal with my big brother in Bristol also, I can’t venture up that way without seeing him, it would seem like a wasted opportunity.

So there we are, a little about how I’m feeling right now and a little more than I expected on top of that.

Happy January x

6 Comments Add yours

  1. Charlotte says:

    This is so well articulated and expresses exactly how I am currently feeling about maybe (definitely?) being a blog-imposter and needing to get wildly carried away with some decorating at home. Keep blogging its fab, as is your shop 🙂

    1. Thank you Charlotte xx

  2. Laura says:

    Alice, as a loyal reader of your blog for about a year now, I just wanted to say that I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, but also to thank you for sharing such a raw and honest post. The truth is that I love reading about plywood, arguing children, and nice cushions, because for me reading your blog is pure escapism. I enjoy reading everything you write about and it doesn’t really matter what it is!

    It’s a shame that what, for me, is something relaxing and a nice treat (taking the time out to read your blog), can sometimes feel to you like a lot of stress and pressure in producing the content. Nobody who reads this blog would ever want you to feel that way. I don’t have any answers, but I suspect that spending more time offline and with our families may be the best antidote there is. Enjoy your nesting at home and your increased time for yourself, and with your lovely girls.

    1. Hi Laura, thanks so much for your lovely words of support, it means a lot. ♡♡

  3. Karen says:

    Hi Alice, I found your blog through WordPress recommendations.
    I think it’s common for us all to have moments of self-doubt, I know you are not alone in that. Someone very wise once told me that ‘it’s your blog you can do what you like with it’… how very true, this is our creative outlet and it needs to fit with what you want from it instead of being manipulated to fit others ideals.
    I’ve only read this post and I like your writing style, it’s homely and comforting to read.
    I wish you well and hope you get back to the bloggers happy place soon.
    Karen (from xx

    1. Hi Karen, thanks very much for your kind words of support xx

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